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I have been told I’m a really good natural psychologist or therapist. And having a Virgo stellium in the 8th with Mercury & Pluto (not conjunct) with harmonious yet powerful aspects flowing through that house, it’s not really a wonder why I’m told that…

I genuinely care about what makes people tick and how to help them move past their blocks and other people’s blocks.

But being there, helping people, means I’m stuck in the past — the other’s past and my past. And my focus the whole time is to take the other to their own positive future. But what about me? Am I achieving my future? I think not.

We are who we spend our time with.

I love helping people but having an early degree Virgo SN Conjunct Mercury in the 8th house is doing psychoanalysis and dealing with people’s deep and dark stuff. And while I can do it well, it’s my past. I’m also not into studying something in a way that doesn’t give me personal freedom of mental expression. In other words, to be a psychologist, I need to do years of formalized education in a restrictive environment and with Jupiter & Uranus Libra in the 9th I don’t think that’s my destiny. My future is Pisces NN 2nd house conjunct (out of sign) an Aquarius Part of Fortune in the 1st and my late degree Virgo in the 8th (close to or cusping on Libra… My Venus Virgo is 28°).

Helping people (in the way I have done) keeps me in my past. It took a TarotSeek session and a conversation my Pisces hubby to hit the final nail on the head. And that’s an incredible revelation because I had trouble with understanding how I could do Pisces NN while having Virgo SN and a packed house of Virgo. And while I love helping people and can do it, it wasn’t serving me and I want to be a servant in another way — a way that serves the goals of other AND myself.

But I asked: How can I do my Pisces NN while moving away from the Virgo SN with so much Virgo?! The answer is plainly in not judging others or their situation and doing Piscean pursuits that are largely insular yet eventually healing and expanding out to others.

Anyway, back to this topic…

Once I make-over someone, they are done — they leave. I don’t get invited to the photo-shoot or the after-party, and rarely do I get a photo of that shoot mailed to me down the road. It’s not fun and I ♡ fun!

Once I help someone shine brightly, they leave and I don’t get to enjoy the fruits of our labour. And the people I help, don’t really come back for me. They are not really thinking of getting me ahead and that’s not their fault or their responsibility.

It’s time that I do my Pisces NN and start working with art and music in a spiritual way — in a way that inspires and teaches others.

Looking back, it’s (art has) always been there.
Abella “Jucy” Arthur ~ Arthor ~ Author ~ ARThur ~ ART-her

I was part of the choir in school and church. I still sing today (in my shower, while washing dishes, etc!) and have dreams of being a one-hit wonder — time limited fame & fortune! I have a ton of musical instruments but I haven’t picked up my guitar in a long while and I actually fancy the harmonica and drums. I was part of a special enrichment class in grade school where we made a commercial about soda-pop and I was the lead actress doing Michael Jackson’s MoonWalk (totally dating myself here!). I always took art class in school and drew everything that would let me. Teachers liked what I did but they never pushed me into a professional pursuit.

In one of my high schools, I was in a special class where most of the students were actors, athletes, or artists. They asked: What do you do? I didn’t. I was just a student who was bright but accelerated so regular school was too boring and didn’t work. I needed independent and flexible study. That’s why I was there. But I did spend some time thinking about going to OCAD and I hung around art students and professional artists.

In my late teens I worked at a local movie theatre and once sang Blue Moon at the front of the stage with an usher who was trying to land an acting gig / career. And there was Ed, the dancer and wow, do I love dance. Which brings me to being a gymnast with a particular interest in the mat and beam. Then as an adult, I took pottery and other hobby art workshops. Color and color psychology are big interests too. I am amazed at how color transforms an environment or person. I like to play with origami, draw, and create to help me relax and be. And my Mom is a Pisces and an artist plus my ancestors were musicians and artistic. To boot, as a 30/3 life path I like to express and I took drama every year too. I can be a bit of an improvisational loon.

There are so many more artistic and dramatic memories but it would probably fill pages and I hope not to bore anyone with details. I also didn’t intend for such a self-exploration but with Mercury Septile Jupiter, I have a habit of writing or talking up a storm! Hope no one thinks it’s self-absorbed and I do hope this helps others take the time out to find or accept their heart’s desire.

But back onto topic again…

I greatly admire/d artists and I was/am surrounded by artists but I never stepped up to be an artist and while some artists helped me take a step, looking back… it looks to me that others almost hid their artistry from me preferring to talk about what I knew and did rather than what they knew and did so I didn’t get to learn a lot.

This is why even though I have connected with tons of people in my lifetime, I’ll never forget those that helped me positively progress because they have been few and far between. Like an ex-boyfriend (also a three life path) who had cut a super CD of his own. He let me stay in his place and sing to my heart’s content on his recording equipment and finally I was able to sing in front of him — first time I did that as an adult. And I even contemplated getting singing lessons back then but I didn’t. In fact, ever so often I reach out to get lessons but something holds me back (now, I’m just studying how to sing through a CD program, as I clean up my place). Anyway, he inspired me to write some songs and paint too. He, a Taurus, went on to get a degree in fine art. He opened me up to express myself and to let go of rigidity without actually telling me what to do. And one Christmas he got me a color wheel. That was one of the best gifts I ever got. He also got me a blue cup with a sunflower on it (I love flowers, especially sunflowers — LEO!!) that I used for my paint brushes and he also gave me a painting he did for me.

Natally, I have a packed Venus (as well as Mercury, Moon, a lot of Septiles, Noviles, and Deciles — but this post is about the right side of my brain as it pertains to art and why I’m turning away from my left, for now, to explore it).

Neptune is a higher vibration of Venus.
I have Neptune Scorpio in the 10th house.
I am a muse but I like having muses too.

(Astrology notes… things I just noticed or thought of after writing this whole she-bang up!)

  • I wrote this on Friday — Venus day! hehe)
  • The world transit for Chiron has retrograded back to 2° 30 Pisces TODAY and that has re-activated my North Node Pisces 2° 49 as a powerful conjunction. This also means that my SN is opposite Tr. Chiron reminding me that the past hurts my future.
  • The last time Chiron came into 2° 30 Pisces was on March 11th, 2011 and the last time it will jump back in a direct motion, in my lifetime, will be on January 18, 2012 at 2° 47; however, the first week of January will probably bring a huge jump in consciousness as to what and how I’m to carry out my life’s mission.
  • My midheaven trines my North Node and Tr. Chiron trines my Na. MC

Art has been at my fingertips this whole time. I have done it, I have hung around people who did it, and yet why was I being so nebulous about the whole thing when it came to me doing it?

With all this art around me, why has it taken me so long to connect the dots? I have my thoughts but it mostly comes from non-support. Insular art is not something that others can enjoy, at least not right away. And I have found that the majority of people are selfish. If it doesn’t serve them at that moment, then why care? If you are reading this and you are not selfish, I wouldn’t be so quick to pat yourself on the back nor would I do so if you consider yourself selfish. Because doing what doesn’t come naturally helps find a balance and that is often something to be more proud (a Leo word) of.

For myself (with my Sun in the 7th house naturally ruled by Venus & Juno), I’m learning to be selfish and to take care of me. I don’t have any more time to lose. It’s time for my Sun Leo to flower…

 

p.s. I’m not the ‘throw the baby out with the bath water kind of Gal”… My Venus Trine Saturn likes to expand upon, build upon. I’m not giving up on the psychic arts, I’m adding to it. That’s my Jupiter Sextile Ascendant. :D © Abella Jucy Arthur